“The most common form of despair is not being who you are.” – Soren Kierkegaard
From the moment I heard about Trust I just could not wait to read it and I absolutely loved it. It was just one of those books that reeled me in from the start and kept me enthralled until the very end. I literally could not put this book down, it was one of those books where you know you have to go to bed because you have to wake up early the next day but keep thinking “I’ll just read one more chapter” and before you know it you’ve finished the book. Of course you have had next to no sleep by morning, so you have to use tooth picks to keep your eyes open all day. But it was well and truly worth it, because I just loved it that much. It was raw, emotional, and gritty. It was a real coming of age story about friendship, love, self-consciousness relating to body image and overcoming traumatic events that results in a bond that is so strong nothing can break.
Edie and John meet during a robbery at a local convenience store where they were held hostage at gunpoint. Edie was both shaken and frightened and had no idea how she was going to get out of the traumatic situation alive. Thanks to John, they were both able to survive the ordeal when he risked his life to save hers.
They were both able to leave the robbery relatively unscathed; injuries heal quicker than the mental scarring. And as we know though, terrifying and traumatic events are hard to get over and Edie was fearful of sleeping, such were the vivid and horrifying nightmares she had as a result of that incident.
“Death was a stone, dragging me deep. Life had been so much simpler and easier before all of this. I’d been immortal, but tomorrow didn’t exist.”
After the robbery, Edie has a new outlook on life; she no longer puts up with the bullying at her private school she once did. After convincing her mom, she decides to leave the snobbery and bullying behind and enrol at the local public school. There she stumbles upon someone she never thought she’d see again, the person responsible for saving her life. Together they help to heal each other from the traumas of their past and a beautiful bond and friendship is formed.
I loved Edie, she is probably one of the best heroines I have read to date. Bold statement I know. I loved her quick wit and sense of humor for a start, but it’s so much more than that; she was a very relatable and real seventeen year old girl. Like a lot of teenage girls she has body image issues and for her, it was her stomach and thighs which she attempts to hide. It was so beautiful to read as the friendship with John progressed into something more, her perception of herself started to shift and she became a lot more comfortable in her own skin.
“He was beautiful and I . . . I was nothing. An out-of-her-depth girl who wore too much black and feared the bulk of society.”
John, wow! What can I possibly say about this beautiful young man. Not only did he risk his life to save someone he’s never even met before, but he’s shown immense courage and bravery to reform and turn his life around for the better. As the friendship between himself and Edie unfolds, his protective nature towards Edie is nothing short of inspiring. He would do absolutely anything to ensure she is kept safe and out of harm’s way. There was nothing I did not love about John Cole.
I loved this all-consuming story with its intense emotions and feelings associated with falling in love for the first time. How when you meet someone for the first time they have the ability to change your life, through a bond so strong nothing or no one is likely to tear them apart. This story has been classified as YA, but I would classify it as more NA, even though the story is centred on high school students the themes, I believe, are too mature for YA, but that’s just me.
Trust was such a moving, emotionally driven story and the humor thrown into the mix fit perfectly with the story. To anyone who loves stellar writing, inspiring characters and a compelling plot that draws you in from the very first word until the very last, this book is for you. Trust me, you’ll want to read this one. It was simply unforgettable.
“You were going to give it up to Duncan Dickerson?” he sneered. “Are you serious?”
I halted, staring at him. This was not good. “How do you know about that?”
“Anders overheard you and Hang talking.”
“Well?” he demanded, acting all authoritarian. Idiot.
“To be fair, I didn’t know his last name was Dickerson,” I said. “That’s unfortunate. Though, I wasn’t actually planning on marrying him, so . . .”
“You barely know the guy.”
“Um, yeah. None of your concern. We’re not talking about this.” How mortifying! My face burned bright. People should just gather around and cook s’mores. “I appreciate that we’re friends. You mean a lot to me. But this is going to have to fall under definitely none of your damn business, so go away please.”
“We’re talking about it.” He advanced a step.
“No we are not.” And I retreated.
“You were going to let a complete stranger touch you.” Advance.
Retreat. “People do it all the time. You do it all the time.”
“But you don’t,” he said, taking the final step, backing me up against the side of his car and getting all in my face. “Edie, this is your first time we’re talking about. Isn’t it?”
“Yes, and it’s going to be messy and painful and probably horribly embarrassing and I just want it over and done with.” I tried to meet his eyes but failed, settling for a spot on his right shoulder. “You’re not a girl; you wouldn’t understand. Also, last time I checked, you’re not the gatekeeper of my hymen, John Cole. So back the fuck off.”
He said nothing.
Deep, calming breaths. “Look, someday I’ll meet someone I really like and we’ll have a deep and meaningful relationship and go at it like bunnies. But I don’t want to be the dumb virgin in that scenario.”
He slowly shook his head.
“Also, I do not want to die a virgin.”
“What? What the hell are you talking about?”
“Hey, you and I both know death can occur at any time.”
“This is crazy.”
“I’m seeing a therapist!” I told his shoulder. “I don’t know if you noticed, but I’m a little bit messed up these days. It’s hard for me to trust people. That’s not going to change anytime soon.”
He screwed up his face at me. “Wha—”
“I’m just trying to be practical.”
“Well, you’re being ridiculous. None of this makes sense.”
“It does to me.”
Again, he said nothing.
In fact, he said nothing for so long that I finally looked him in the eye. The anger had left him, replaced by an emotion I didn’t recognize. Worst of all, he still smelled like summer. A little sweat and the open night air, everything I loved. Liked. I meant liked.
“What?” I said, finally.
He let loose a breath. “I’ll do it.”
About the Author:
Kylie is a New York Times and USA Today best-selling author. She was voted Australian Romance Writer of the year, 2013 & 2014, by the Australian Romance Writer’s Association and her books have been translated into eleven different languages. She is a long time fan of romance, rock music, and B-grade horror films. Based in Queensland, Australia with her two children and husband, she reads, writes and never dithers around on the internet.